Update
So after a few weeks in the new role and having been paid I can now call myself a junior developer. I'm really enjoying writing code, learning, seeing how some bigger projects are managed and how teams work together. There's a heap for me to learn still and seeing the skill difference between our lead dev and what I can do inspires me that I have so much room to grow.
Life wise I'm settling into new routines, now that I'm getting a feel for work requirements. Running and gym back on the schedule.
There's more I can write about, but ultimately right now I just feel happy. Things aren't perfect and I'm improving parts of my life, but for the first time in years I feel like I'm on the right path forwards